Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Yup, I've been promoted as a Subject Matter Expert (SME) and I can't help but smile today. I must have done something right.
The announcement was made last night. Since it was my off, I was not aware of the appointment till today. When I board my cab today, one of my cab mates reached out her hand and said "Congratulations!". I was dumb founded and said, 'What for?'
"You are the new SME; you've been appointed"
I did not know what to say and I was really excited about it. I was thinking, 'A promotion, wow!'.
Then Varun added, "I wasn't surprised when your name was announced last last night because I have been expecting this. I would be shocked if your name was not announced". Thanks Varun, I will take that as a compliment and it was really sweet of you to say that.
After hearing the news, I smsed my family and my closest friends, telling them of the good news.
Once of my closest and best friends, SPI, callled me up to congratulate me. She added -
I do not know your job profile but I like the same, it sounds beautiful and great.
Earlier, I got no intention of applying for this post as I just got back from my home, feeling home sick and not ready to work. In fact, I did not bother until Naveen came to me and ask "Have you cleared your first round?"
"For..." was my reply.
"For the SME. Have you gone through the first round?"
Then I told him that I was not interested and that I won't be applying. But he insists that I applied for the post. After sometime, I finally gave in. I was not sure if my application would still be accepted as I was very very late and to my surprise, it was.
The next night was the interview. I was in the middle of handling a case when I was called for the interview. The toughest question was the interviewer (our Sr. Ops Manager) asking me what I do not like about him. Whew..that was tough but I answered him anyway.
I am really thankful to Naveen; had it not been for him, I might still be in the same position.
I am really nervous yet excited of my new profile. I will be leading a team now and come to think of it, I have my team now, eh!
My responsibility is very high now and the team's future is in my hands. I hope I do well and live up to the expectation.
The Ops Manager called me today to congratulate on my appointment to which he added
"I want 10 Bteii from your team; I want each of them to be as good as you" and now I guess you can understand the pressure and the responsibility.
A comment from the ABM (Asst Br. Man) was, "Now, your team's score is your score." A very short remark but says a lot.
As I said, I am nervous and lost my confidence a bit and yes, challenging.
Join me in thanking the almighty and at the same time pray for me so that I do well. I could use all the prayers I can get.
Sunday, January 27, 2008
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
Worst of all, I did not have the time to say 'Bye' to them. Since they were out of house for the past two days, I haven't got the chance to talk to them.
Talked to them last night, while I was still in the office and the conversation went like this:
"We are going home"
Her: We are becoming hurband and wife (giggles)
Me: Congrats! I am so happy for you. Wait for me...I want to see you guys before you leave. Let's celebrate
Her: Can't, the flight is early in the morning"
Me: But I want to see you guys before you leave"
Her: We want to see you too...thought today was your off and we came to see you"
"But we've got to celebrate"
laughter at the other end
"But we have to rush"
"Gosh, I'll be missing you guys"..and I meant it, I really missed them
"We will be missing you too"
"Anyway, I am happy for you ..and all the best...have a safe jorney..bye"
and after a few more laughter, our conversation end.
I've never felt so alone..the house is so empty without their presence..may be beccause I get so used to being their around
Cos each day after getting up got out from my room
'Good morning..how do u sleep?'
"I slept well"..with a smile
Then Thuama would get up and shoot me with all those crazy and stupid questions.
Gosh, to my surprise I really missed them a lot
I actually waited for the maid to turn up this morning so as to have someone to talk to. I know that they were usually asleep by the time I got back but then there is always something missing. I chatted with the maid
I know my Hindi's quite poor but we understood whatever we said, lol
She said (in HIndi), 'You are all alone in this house..how do you feel'
'Have they taken all theri things?'. I've told her that I didn't even want to check on their room.
Now, don't ask me how she said it but that was what she said..hahhahaa
Anyway..no time for self pity but I want you guys to know that I am missing you a lot and I feel so lost without you guys around. Wish you all the happiness in the world and...ram, I wish he is worth it. All the best. I love you guys :)
Sunday, January 13, 2008
I was at home when I got a call from Maruati, inviting me to go home. She said, "I don't have money either, we will go by train. Let's go home". Couldn't say No and so it was done.
Left Delhi on 2oth Dec. 2007 and the journey was quite smooth. No, we did not get reservation but we met some guys from place who let us stay with them..and I am still very grategul to them. Reached Aizawl on 23rd Dec. 07. It was grreat to see your family and your dear ones and who are happy to see you too. After reacing home, made necessary phone call; reporting that I have arrived :)
The sky was clear and it was cool and beautiful. As I looked around, it reminded me of the comment made about Mizoram - House built on hillslope and how true that comment is.
Oops, I forgot to take picture of the feast day. It was great. Just as I tought, the pork was great, the beef was excelent and the chutney, vawklu etc were all upto the mark. All in all I give 100 per cent :).
Since it was the year that we lost our aunt, my family made it clear that we are to spend the Christmas Eve and New Year's Eve at their place, which is jsut opposite to my house. So, I did not go anywhere. But spending those eves with your family turned out to be quite fun; sharing laughters, fun, burning crackers etc etc.
After burning those crackers and all the other fireworks, we had Ar Sawhchiar (chicken mixed with rice) and it tastes wonderful. See how we enjoyed ourselves :)
I simply add this pic because he has the same name, Chris :P.
Thursday, January 10, 2008
That's what my mind is filled with - Negativity.
I joined back office on 9th Jan. Before I left for my vacation, I tought I love working here but right not I realized how wrong I was.
As I was sitting in front of my system, I asked myself:
What am I doing here?
Do I really love working here?
Is it worth working here?
Is it worth to be away from your family and friends and work here?My confidence level had dipped down to negative and I do not feel like working anymore. As someone once said, I am surrounded by MIPs which frustrate me more and makes me want to leave so badly. I wonder if I will ever get over this feelings :(
At the same time, a little voice inside me tells me to hang on…not to let myself down by these people. Gosh, it’s just so hard at the moment and wonder if I ever pulled through.
As I was browsing around, I saw this article on Positive Thinking and thought of sharing it out here and close this:
Step 1: Take passionate action towards living your life by design. Talk is cheap. Action = success of a passionately authentic future. Successful People turn their dreams into reality by Taking Action
Step 2: Commit to yourself to create successful life you can be proud of Instead of reacting, commit to creating from your heart and soul, out of love rather than fear. Your dream will always be there, but a dream will still be a dream without your commitment. Take action with commitment and be amazed as the transformation begins.
Step 3: Recognize and embrace the thought that each moment is perfect regardless of its outcome Every time you hit on something that may appear too extreme, why not give it a shot and see if it will work. You will be surprised to see of there are other ways to get the task done in time. If you are not pleased with the outcome, decide to use that moment to learn from and make the appropriate shift.
Step 4:Dwell completely in a place of gratitude Learn to utilise what you have in your hands and make use of it in the most constructive way. Slipping into neediness will become less of a habit when you repeatedly shift towards gratitude, away from poverty consciousness.
Step 5: Use a Passion Formula of Recognise Re-evaluate and Restore In place of I should have / I would have /I could have done it this way. The former is based on increased knowledge and abundance while the latter focuses on scarcity and lack. When something goes wrong don't sit down and mope about, recognise your mistakes and learn from them for the next time
Step 6: Keep humour at the forefront of thought Laughing at and with your self when possible. You may find yourself quite entertaining when you loosen up! I am yet to see a comedian ever go hungry even though his jokes are as 'old as great-grandma'. Life has so much to offer to allow you to mope around in self pity. Humour is very attractive, very passionate: life-giving.
Step 7: Believe that you are the architect of your destiny No one can take your passionate future from you except for you! Create your life authentically. As long as there's still breath in your body, there is no end to how much you can accomplish in a lifetime. The concept of thinking big is all about enjoying your work, which would lead to celebrate a discovery that is born within your hands. Watch everything flow into place with perfect, passionate precision.